it

people find it in different places.

some search in the dark space
under the bed,
take the lid
off the shoebox, and grab the needle.

some skip the bullshit,
get right down to the veins--
take the razorblade and bleed.

we all need to find it sometimes,
sometimes at night
when we're sleeping alone.

i'll get in my car.
windows down and music on,
pretending i'm not the same
as the bleeding,

the ones just trying
to find a vein
and make sure their blood
is still warm.




by me.